rainy day...da most painful day ever...

as xpected...
he broke up wif me d...
i dunno how to say abt tis ...
but...

i feelin damn hurt nw...
my heart really feelin DAMN pain...
although my frens keep tellin me tat he's nt playin...

but...
i still thinkin tat he's playin me...
i knw tat v r nt suitable for each other since v hangout...
but still...
i oways hope tat tis will change after v go out...

but...it is a failure...
after tis...
i really wont keep hoping tat everythg will change...
after tis happen to me...

i dun think i'll trust guys anymore...
i dun think i'll trust in love anymore...
i dun think i'll trust in everythg...

i knw its kinda over but...
i nid sum time to recover...
but i wont try to go couple wif anyone...

tis time...tis thg is really makin me feel fade up of it...

3 weeks relationship...
wat a loong loong time...

well...although i nw very sad but...
it cnnt change da fact tat v hav broke up...

i really wan to stop cryin...
but da tears keep rolling down...
hw am i goin to 4giv him ?
hw am i goin to talk wif him normally?
hw am i goin to forgt abt him?
hw am i goin to start my new life?

y?
y u play me?
playin ppl's feeling is very nice izit?
although every1 sayin u r nt playin me..
i still havin da same feelin tat u R!!

nw...
i really started to regret...
y i couple wif u...
if i didn't do thgs like tat...
it wont turn out to b like tis...

y i nid to fall in luv wif u?
y i nid to like u?
y i nid to chat wif u?
y i nid to webcam wif u?

u tot i'm stupid izit?
i knw tat u wan to break up d!!
i knw!!
i dunno la...
sumtimes...
u really makin me feel tat u r nt serious in havin a relationship...

u makin me feel damn disappoint...
u makin me feel to anti all da guys,love,everythg...

i look happy izit?
NO!!
I'M NT!!
everytime i talk wif u...
makes my heart pain!!
seeing u to b like tis...
even more pain...

although i hate u nw...
but still..
i nid to thx u for all da thgs tat u've done to me...

i dun nid ur explanation for all of tis...
i juz nid sum time...

and finally...
i wish u to go find ur true girl...
and stay happy...

i wont hate u...
coz hating is so sufferin...
i'll try to 4gt abt u...
4gt all da thgs tat v've been thru...
and try to forgiv wat u've done to me and my heart...
i'll try to repair it...
but i dunno how long it will nid to recover...